You Are What You Eat

If that is so then...

"Ich bin ein Berliner."

Which supposedly means I am a jelly donut in German.  Oh how I love those raspberry filled powdered sugar covered donuts.

This weekend I was definitely a jelly donut, and some Hershey's kisses, also a couple of Mr. Pibb Xtras (Big Gulp sized)

I have been doing a little bit better in how and what I consume.  I have read/heard how bad sugar, soda, preservatives etc. are for you.  I know all about how important it is to eat healthy.  I know I should look at my body like a machine and put the "correct" fuel into it.

On a intellectual level I know all of these things.

Unfortunately for me I am not an intellectual eater.  I am an emotional eater.  Basically that means I eat when I have an emotion.

I eat to celebrate.
I eat to mourn.
I eat when I am angry.
I eat when I am happy.
I eat when I am sad.
I eat when I am confused.

Basically I eat.  All the time.  Actually that isn't as true as it once was.  Over the 2013 holiday season I got really sick and was put on predisone. Which, fortunately for me, didn't make me put on weight as is the case for most people.  What it did to me was change my taste buds.  Everything tasted metallic and horrible. They were not Happy Holidays that year.  We had all this delicious food and candy and I could eat it but it tasted awful.  It was then that I learned that I really could survive without my emotional eating.

I didn't need that Coke and sausage biscuit from McDonald's on my way to work.  It tasted terrible and I was okay without it. I could survive withou the 7-Eleven runs to get the Salt and Vinegar chips with second large Coke for the day.  I could eat one or two bites of a candy bar and it was okay.

Unfortunately I find that I am slowly slipping back into old habits.  But this time around I at least recognize the slippage and I am trying to do something about it.  I have some good friends who are keeping me on the exercise wagon.  Now I just need to get back on the no soda and less sweets wagon.

I need to wear blinders and earplugs when I go into the grocery store so I don't see those delicious powdery white covered raspberry jelly filled demons or hear them calling out to me as I walk past them.  I need to have some snacks that are fast and tasty but not too calorie filled.

I really like cucumbers and carrots. Yogurt and cottage cheese are good things too. Maybe I'll even try some jicama.  I mean if you are what you eat at least I could be something cool sounding like jicama.

 But those things just really aren't the same as a jelly donut.